solution.

"I lied to everyone about everything, especially me.
I say im not tired when i am, I say im hungry when im not, i tell people what they wanna hear, i never say what i am actually feeling.
I let the lies pile up, like bricks on a wall until i cant see out and no one else can see in.
I make a plan to escape, i become someone else, put on a disguise and i climb over the wall and no one reconizes me .
I feel powerful , i can get people to what i want them to do.
But i go to far, I get lost and i don't recognize myself.
Take off the disguise, I give away the power
I give up the control, i retrace my steps, go back to the wall and i take it down brick by brick.
I bury them to mark the place.
I strip away all the lies, until there are none left.
I remember the girl i left behind. I claim the confidence i was missing.
I envision the women i want to be, tell everyone the truth about everything, especially you."


I absolutely love this monologue. it's so breath taking to me- because I can relate to it in so many different ways. As I was saying in my last post, we all have this problem of internalizing our true inner thoughts and emotions. Well I've taken the time to look around and observe all that is going on. How we act and react to people and their actions. What a lie can do both positively- the short term effect, and negatively- the long term effect. If we just stopped and realized the long term effect in all situations, we would save so much grief and unhappiness. Lying to make someone else happy only makes things worse. Procrastination isn't just a thing in the school and work world. It also causes its flaws in day to day life. What if we were to stop tip toeing around the broken glass, and try not to be afraid of shattering even more? Simplicity at its finest, courage for your own future.

If only it were that simple......